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"People are not perfect (Except when they smile)"

Okay!
So..
It's been years since I have written an entry in this thing.And honestly, I don't know why I am doing it now. Lots of stuff is going on and it's kind of driving my mind crazy thinking this and that, what if yadda yadaa. You know..the annoying questions and thoughts that pop in your mind that isn't needed and don't want? Yeah..I hate those too. So..summer is practically here. I'm sure it will be a summer to remember..that is for sure. I don't know what will happen..for good or bad. But hey, I'm pretty much ready for it though I''m scared crapless. But, that is life right? Shairina's aunt died today. It was unexpected too. And her husband was cold about it. Gee..that's some kind of love. I also met a boy who is a year younger than me and his name is Kyle, he smiles and laughs and acts like he doesn't have a care in the world..but he has a blood disease that is uncureable and he could die at any time, any moment..and it makes me sad to see these thing is life.. but it also teaches me to not take life for granted cause you only live once and you never know how long you will live and I appreciate life so much more than I use to.What got me was something he told me.."Lets not ever get boring! Because when we get boring,..we die" and I knew what he meant. Cause, you know how when you're about to die sometime..you get so weak and tired and youdo kind of become boring cause you can't do much..then you die. It's so heartbreaking to see these things..to hear them. I can't imagine being in a situation like that..how scared I would be..how scared they/he must be. I think life is a gift..it's just your choice on how you use the gift and the way you use it. And it can be a great experience and I'm willing to go for it and live it to the fullest. =] That's all for now I guess.
XoxO!

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Don't ask.
I'm fustrated.
I don't know what the fuck to think now.
I don't know what to even say about this.
Or what the fuck is even going on!!!!
Like SERIOIUSLY!!!!!!!
I'm so pissed off//confused//hurt//fustrated.
I wantto scream.
Or something.
UGHHHH!!!!!
WTF is going on!?!?!?
And I don't feel good at all.
I feel so sick.
I hate this.
Stupid life.
Why do I even bother.
I'm just ranting on in here befor I go mad.
Gah.
What ever.

Kitteh..
Is sotired she can't keep her eyes open.
DDx!
I don't wanna go to bed yet.
Must...stay...up.
Aurey is talking to me at the moment.
And frankly..
It's not making much sense to me at the moment.
But watch in the middle of the day tomorrow I will realize it and BAM I'll end up and pure laughter.
And people will think I am a retard who bursts out into laughter from dead silence.
Mhmmm...
And I'm listening to that Pocahontas song "If I never knew you"
And it's putting me to sleep.
Such a cute song.
x3
Well, Much love to all.
Tired Kitteh here signing off!
<3333

I'm gonna make this Clear.
I do not like blade sucking emo attention whores who get drunk and blab ONLY about that stuff!
GET...A...LIFE!
People these days..
Ranting one about "OMG I'm so fat *CUT!* OMG I hate my life *CUT!* OMG! My parents are gay *CUT!* OMG My friend hates me *CUT!*"
OMG!!..Grow up!
This world is so going down hill with crap like these.
And frankly..
I don't give a damn about it if you're going to be like that.
It shows to me that you only want attention.
WELL buddeh, ya aint gettin' it from me!
I don't have a problem with emo styled people or sceneor what ever.
Just the ones who act like that.
Unless you're on the streets starving to death with a disease, BE thankful for what you have!
Call me a bitch, I don't care.
=]
Much love to all!
I'm so done ranting now.
<33

Okay...
So I don't really know if anyone reads this but I'ma post anyways cause yeah..
Haha...

So yestderday (Tuesday) was the first day practly for work. Christa came along around 5pm and we said our hellos and squeals and hugs and suchness.Then back to work. I don't know much that went on yesterday cause I am way too tired to even remember.Plus yesterday wasn't that big lol. But I know that I was sitting and Christa suddenly pulls be back and I go flying to the ground. My arm hits the spatchula and send the brownie flipping in the air and landing back in it's rightful spot with cracked us up sooo badly even though I was on the ground in pain.Then Christa called Katie and such and such and we all laughed and later on went home and slept and woke up.
Then there's today (Wensday)...
Wow...where to begin on this one.This was a big day. Bad and good. We all wake up and leave. I forget my cellphone (Typical me.) and I didn't realize it till half way to the fair wich is about an 1hrish away.But we get there and we start to open and my dad was like "What's in the sink??" and I was like "Uh...looks like towels" and then I got yelled at for no reaaason at all.Then he said I was in a bad mood wich I wasn't lol.But yeah we were all sooo hot and sooo bored.It was such a loong day. So we decided to put on the radio (wich...obviously we figured out was a bad idea..) And we sat around and listend to to.Served costumers here and there. Then..I decided to go to the restroom. I take my leave and halfway there some guy pulls me over and looks up and down at me and was all like "...Hey!!...Can we talk!?" I gave him a look and was like "Uh..no..I'm working..by!" and kept on walking.Then afterwords I come back and this guy Dillon and his friend comes up to the window. He did this several times now. Coming and going as he pleaded. He would stare at us and ask us questions and such and then he had the nerve to come all away around back and knock of the back of the trail door!!! Then came back around and asked for all our phone numbers,age,names, such and such and we're all like "Uh..if your not going to buy anything...Leave!! Your getting us introuble!!" Geez... we got so much yelled at today. I the must but hey ohwell. Then Christa and I did this whole dancing booty thing and my dad just HAPPEND to look in the trailer then. Out of all the times and we got in soo much trouble. Haha... then later on we are on the car ride home and I'll tell ya...we have some of the most interesting, funny, weird conversations held in a 1 1/2 long car ride home. Haha.. what a day this was. I also got to talk to Joshua for like..5 minutes. BUT I'm extremly happy even if it was for the shortest time ^^ I still love him. And I've written alot so I must go take my shower and go to bed. Byes!

--Kitty.--

Rawr....Maybe I'm over reacting abit on this? I don't know. I don't know what the hell to think anymore. So I'm just gonna go along with it and trust people. I shouldn't but I am. And if things are fucked up... I swear things will deff. change! I got prolly... maybe a half an our of sleep if lucky.Well, I have to work today. Woo. Go me! So...byees!

This is bullshit. I don't even know what the hell is going on anymore. I hear this and that and I know it's true. So what the hell!!!!! I am so furious it's not even funny. I've been letting all this slide but it's gone too far. I swear I don't even know why I bother anymore. Why do I care so much. How is it that when something so good happends, something bad happends with it. Something always finds a way to screw it up. I wanna cry. Shit... I'm already crying. I can't believe this!! Arg...I swear I could slap someone right now. HARD too..RAWRRR!!! -stomps off angerly to bed.-

Rawr! This weekend was interesting. Long yet interesting. Where to begin. Well, we leave for work and I listend to my cd player on the way. We get there and we unload and blahblah we do. I was so dull and tired then it was kinda pathetic. Then we reach to the hotel and we ate subs and a few cookies. Sheliah and I....became HYPER! Oh man it was funny. My dad goes out to the car to get something and my mom, Sheliah and I just sat there(Eee...my birds are annoying) for the longest time and we were like "So...I wonder how long it takes to actualy go to the car.." and right when she said that, dad came in and he was like "How long...would you have noticed befor you realized I couldn't get back into the hotel.." we all looked at eachother and bursted out laughing. It was funny!! Then dad went to get his soda bottle and it smacked her in the arm and I was like "OW!" and dad was like "Oh, that didn't hurt" and my mom was like "oh yeah, she gets hit with your soda bottle and you tell her it didn't hurt." and he started laughing, we all laughed. Then I was talking to Katie for a while and my dad was like "Okay...5 minutes for the computer.." So I get on and I checked one thing then get off and I was like "Done!" and he just stared at me amazed like and I went back to talking to Katie. Sheliah and I was all in this "Shut up.." thing and my mom was like "Okay...you say be quiet, not shut up" and Sheliah and I slowly looked at her and was like "...Shut up..." at the exact same time.Then we had to go to bed so we did. Got off with (My nose itches)Katie and all. Sheliah and I weren't even tired at all. So we just laid there, staring up and we all over a sudden hear kissing noises and we looked at eachother and I was lik "Eww...cooome on!" and they laughed and Sheliah was like "What a way to ruin a moment!" and I laughed and was like "EXACTLY!" So then it got quiet and Sheliah and I started doing weird things. Writting things with our fingers in the air, making weird noises and suffacating ourselfs in the pillow to muffle the laughter. The fredge kept kicking on and scaring the crap outta me wich would make me gasp loudly followed by laughter. Then my(Brb, need a drink!) sister nudged me and was like "Shh...it's alive" and at first, I didn't know what the heck she was talking about. But then I was my dad's arms moving about and we bursted out laughing into the pillow. Then we both pulled our shirts up from our stomachs and I placed my hand on my stomach and it made a little slap noise and we laughed so hard into the pillow and my dad was like "Comon girls! It's 1 in the morning and we gotta get up in 3 hours!" and I was like "4 hours!" and he was like "Shut up and go to bed" and me and my rebelness was like "Oooh...so you can say shutup but we get the 'be quiet'-ness eh?" and they told us to go to bed so we eventualy did. So 5 something in the morning comes and every alarm clock goes off and scared the crap outta me and I jumped up and my did was like "It's a circus.." and we laughed and I went (This is making me sleepy, LOL)back to bed and my dad was like "Wow, Ashley looks dead to the world, someone wake her up" and I sat up with my eyes closed and it was just the funniest thing. So, we get to work later on and set up and suchness. I called Katie in the morning secretly, I hid between the freezers. It was actualy funny cause I looked like such a retard -.- then we got off a while later and Joshua and I texted back and forth for a while. He said some things to make me go all "Aww" and smile. Just cause it was sweet and such. Then I got busy and some guy came up to the window (Who Sheliah was so crushing on..) and asked for money. I was like "Uh...no.." and he was like "Where do your bananas come from?" and I was like "Hm...a tree" and everyone laughed and I found it odd that he'd ask that. Then he wanted one so we gave him one and he comes back and he's like "I don't want it anymore." and it was just stupidly funny..But we got through the day and packed (I ITCHED MY NOSE!)up and such and went our way home and I was reading a book and the next thing I remember, there's a book in my face and I apparently fell asleep and woke up when we happend to get home. And I'm still tired.. I slept long but I'm still tired...I'm so lazy right now it's not even funny xD!! Lol!! Anyways.. That's all for now. Byeees!! <3333

--Kitty.--

-Sighs.-
So much is going on..
I don't even know where to begin..
So, I'm just not going to say them.
They are serious though and It's so sudden.
I don't even know what to do anymore. I really don't.
It scares me and I'm in tears. I'm not those who cry about everything that I know of but this is like... waaay too much.
I worked this weekend. It was alright. Long and exhusting..
And I should be cleaning my room right now..
Hm..ohwell...
Anyways.. I'm sorry Eva for being all rawr like that with you.
And I'm sorry for everything els I have ever done to cause heartache or anger or anything to anyone.
And...Joshua...I love you VERY much...do you see this...
These words are true. I don't even KNOW if you read this..
But it's all very true and I wish I could make things better.
Love yall! <33
--Kitty.--

[[&..She's her own poison]]

Okay...you know what..I feel like being emo right now. My deffenition of emo is being all blah blah complain complain. UGGGGHHH!!!!!! jfklsjflsjflsjfslj...FHLKSFLKASJFLKDJ!!!!!!!! I am not in a good mood!!!! First off...on forget the friggen caps to letters and stuff. I HATE EVA! she's oye she annoys the freakin heck out of me!!!!! she says im pretty with that slutty skirt of mine. THEN pulls on my freggin ears!dfjlsdfjlsja WHY is katie on joshua's sn???? ARGGGG my keyboard is annoying as eveyrthing now. stupid space bar is broken. i broke it. yep. i hate yahoo. yep. yep...i hate work. i'm getting yelled at for no reason. yep. i miss joshua mhm.. and im going to kill my birds. YEP!!! aregg... and i dunno what's wrong with joshua. yeep...i have to get up in not even 5 hours and i don't give a crap.mhm..i screamed in my pillow gosh knows how many times. i think im going crazy today. mhm.. I HAVE TOO MANY DAMN FAN BOYS!!! TOOO MANY!!! i never asked for them! okay! do you know hard it is to keep everything so freakin loyal! im trying my hardest. im not doing anything..nothing..zip nadda.. but they got to put me in possitions where i don't know how to handle them!!! GAH!!!!!! my phone case is broken. WHAT els is gonna break!!! you know whaaat...okay im stopping now befor i go on to something regretfull. I STILL DO NO LIKE EVA!

-Huffs.- Long day... the past 3 days I have been out and about. I'm so tired. Very tired. I get up and I didn't expect to go out today so I went on the computer. Joshua got on and we talked for a few. It was good. I am still unsure bout things though but that's alright. I still love him. Anyhow, I got my nails done yesterday, french manicure. And today I got my 3rd peircing to my ears. My mom watched and she was like "Here you are getting your 3rd done and I am too chicken to get my 2nd holes peirced." and I bursted out laughing. It didn't even really hurt so yeah. Then we walked around a little and Shelih asked if I was going prep. I told her no and she looked at me and was like "Sure don't look like it" ._. I'm n ot going prep. I just like some clothing, big whoop. Then we got in the car and I started singing lowly and my mom and my sister looked at me and I was like "What.." and they shook thier heads and muttered and wa like "Oh, like yall never sing.." it was funny. I'm still tired.. tomorrow it'll be exactly 2 months for Joshua and I. Doesn't sound that long but if feels like 2 years. Odd eh? Well, I'm out. Byees!
--Kitty--

.......................
Hm....
Yeah, I get up this morning...all was good.
Joshua...IMs me, with only a "...Seeya Ashley.." and I asked him what's wrong and he said nothing and signed out. Just like that... SO obviously something it going on that I don't know about. And he will prolly tell KT cause they tell eachother every damn thing. EVERYTHING!! I don't even know what goes on 1/2 thier life now. Ya know what...I don't even give a effin damn anymore. So...then I go to the dentist, not a pleasent time. Then off to bingo with my mom and my sister and Now here I am, 11:45pm and I want to just cry cause there is just so much going through my head right now that I am not being able to hoooold it in for long. -Shrugs.- Tomorrow, I'll prolly wake up with a new attitude. Be all happy and perky like I usualy am. Maybe it's just today. Who knows..who cares. I am just blabbing because no one knows, and no one cares. ARgggggg..... u.u Life can be a big pain in the ass sometimes. Tch....anyways, I'll go take a shower and prolly go to sleep if I can. G'night!
--Kitty--

What ever...

Just...I don't care...

I have nothing to say.

Well, I do...I just don't even WANT to say them...

Mhm... Your just wasting your time reading this!!

Well, you are just... ARGGG... guys are complacated...FRIENDS are complacated!!! POP ups are annoying as all hell...
ARgg...now I am going to go so I can finish getting ready to go to the Stupid dentist!! Byes.

Hehe! first post on this thingymajoober... And it's very PINK!! And I hate pink...BUT it's cute!! Yeah...I dun get me either okay. XD I don't even know what to type in this thingy. So I'm just singing in my own little world and staring at this thingy. Haha...yeah... Tomorrow, I gotta go to the dentist...Nuuu!!! -Flails.- Wewt! I get the next 2 weekends off of work though. Yay!! n.n Okay...anywhoo...off to finishing this Livejournal thingy whatnot.. Byees! <33

--Kitty--